Open Question: you ever feel like theres no way anyone out there could possibly feel the same as you do?im numb 2reality.sad.?

6 February 2012, 3:24 am

successful small business owner in a small town..atleast regarding keeping ther doors open but have been on paxil for 7years and i am a alcoholic.battle daily with wanting the blissfull mindset of when i was 12 and the waves of stress/depression/mood shifts and the obvious that i need to stop drinking....its like theres no seratonin in my brain.when i walk 5miles down an oregon country road i feel shades of hope then i celebrate the hike with alcohol and friends and wake up @3pm nextday lost mentaly.even i could answer this post if it wasnt me that alcohol kills and exercise is addictive.i guess i just wanta start a healing conversation with a complete stranger.....i can tell right from wrong but ultimatley iam embarresd to admit that im ill...when people are physicaly ill we almost brag about it(casts,crutches,) atleast we go get help..bye..thanx4listening... Read More »

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